Happy Birthday My Girl

It's your birthday today. It doesn't feel like it has been this long since you have been gone. The last post, the hardest goodbye. Written only days before I knew the second (first being Nina) hardest one was coming. I've been sitting here and I try and find the words to say to you, I …

Goodbye

Describe the last difficult "goodbye" you said. You can't really describe the last goodbye when it feels like an on going sentence. The days that never end. There have been so many unplanned goodbyes lately. I know there are more coming. I don't do well with the no closure thing and I don't do well …

Part Two

Maybe this all started because I stumbled upon the blog from a different ex of his. Maybe this all started because it is time to close that chapter. Maybe it all started because my mind is an asshole. Part two. The friendship started as group chats and work conversations in passing. I knew enough about him to …

Part one.

I'm not really good with things ending. Relationships, movies, books, death, songs, you name it. I always have questions. They could just be something simple like "who was that actress again?" to "ok but why did this happen, why is Batman in the movie if he isn't like in the movie." From Joker - don't …

Turn The Page

Clearly, I haven't followed or done a blog prompt in I don't know how long. I was just sitting here today and figured maybe I will try one for December, found a few and I'll post them on the first. Whether it is a photography one or a writing one it will get me out …

The Silence

What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain. "Hows it going?" The most general question ever. You don't really care the answer it's just a silence filler. Why do words have to be exchanged? Why can't we just be in the silence? For the longest time it seemed to be weather was the …

March First

March first has come and gone. What significance does it hold? Self Injury Awareness Day. I struggled a little to write about this and make any sort of post, reference or speak my knowledge of it. I think if anything I want people to know you are not alone. There are now recovery groups out …

Hiding places and back roads.

Here we are, sitting on the bathroom floor at 4am again. It's not comfortable but I like hiding sometimes. I hide from the dogs in the morning. From myself. From life. I don't like getting out of bed but I have to. The heat just kicked off. Now it is to quiet in here. I …

A tornado

I feel very conflicted today. To many thoughts. To much down time. Will it be the last time? Home 🌪

ED or DE?

Its a whole feeling this question. This thought. That sometimes you can't always talk about food. Sometimes you love food and sometimes you hate it. Sometimes safe foods aren't safe anymore and sometimes you can't stop counting calories. Sometimes when someone makes a "suggestion" it makes you feel less than. Sometimes when they talk about …